How Do I Develop A Coping Strategy?

When my pain reaches a level where I feel like I might die from it - or sometimes wish I would die just to stop it - I find it very difficult to think positively about my condition. Anyone in constant pain for thirteen years must surely, eventually, come to terms with it and learn to live with it. Not necessarily 'cope' with it, but live with it.

I haven't. I want to alter the way I am. I want to reverse it, go back to the days when I wasn't in agony when someone touched me, the days when I could sit and watch TV comfortably, lift heavy gear at work, climb mountains, kayak in the lake district, because I miss those times so much. And that makes the pain worse.

So, how can I live my life going forward when I so badly mourn the loss of my pain-free life?

I don't have a strategy for this.

I need a strategy to help me move on. To make a new life with the added element of "this is gonna hurt, but you're gonna do it anyway and to the best of your limited ability." I already do this, to a certain extent, with my job.

At work I lift stuff I shouldn't. I know full well it's going to hurt later (as well as during the task in hand) but I plod on - cases of eight 2litre bottles of Coke, 10kg bags of flour, 10kg bags of kitty litter, 24 pack beer crates. It hurts, but I do it when I can because to not do it would be to admit defeat and give up working. There are times when my body just will not allow it of course, and my employers know this so they tolerate the days when this happens, but in the main I do as I'm asked. Despite what will follow and in spite of my condition. I do it to maintain some semblance of the life I once had.

Am I wrong to push myself like this? I don't know. I do know that there are men like me all over the world. Men who toil and push themselves, trying to break through the pain barrier in order to avoid admitting defeat. There are, I'm sure, some men out there who go through all of this agony without ever knowing that they have fibromyalgia because they think that is what a man should do, it's 'normal' for a man to do a hard day's work and come home exhausted and in pain. They shrug it off as 'just an age thing' and put off going to the doctors - I know I did, for a long time. When I eventually went to the doctor - he could find nothing wrong. No strains, sprains, pulls, tears, arthritis, rheumatics, cancers. NOTHING. So it's got to be just me getting old, right?

At thirty six?????

Eventually, when you've been through all of the examinations, pokings and proddings by 'specialists' and they have found nothing wrong to be causing you so much agony, they stick you in the fibro category, and they leave you there to rot.

"You have to learn to live with it." they say, to which your reply should be "Okay doc, I'll do just that. Where's the training room?"

There isn't one of course. There is however this wonderful resource called "The Internet" and that's where you should begin developing your strategy for learning to live with fibromyalgia. Read blogs by people with fibro. Join facebook, google+ and other social media to engage with others in chronic pain. The internet is the only resource for helping you to come to terms with, and live with, your condition.

You're not going to get that from your doctor.

A Bit of Non-Scientific Research

With projects in development I need to undertake a little research. Over the next few weeks I'll be asking a few questions the answers to which will determine future developments. I'd be obliged if you could answer the following question.

The poll will provide me with the following information in relation to site visitors: Gender and Geographic location.

Many thanks in advance of your participation. Look out for a new poll over the next few days.

Gary